Yeah, dunnoe wat i'm till doing here... should be mugging my ass off.. but heck.. yeah, wish me luck for common test..

Yeah, wishing one and all good luck for common test. Everyone i know, from anywhere, rj or otherwise.. guess we all need some luck once in a while.. =)

I lay a wreath for Marc-Vivien Foe. The Man City player who died on the pitch while playing for cameroon against colombia.. really shocking.. no reason at all.. i was like how dazed.. and seeing how the professionals react to it, was quite close to tears too. yeah, imagine losing someone just like that.. just teaches us to care more about our loved-ones and to let others know we care.. i should do more of that.. yes, love you all. sad.

Today was almost just as bad.. headache again.. killing me till noon was still damn bad after lunch, so too a short nap, helped a little.. so whole morning gone. then did some physics, and chemistry.. watever, a little a day.. but i don't have that many days, do i? Anyway, not really feeling the pressure for this common test.. dunnoe why, maybe my mum's not nagging.. ha, sorry.. anyway, would be an achievement if i pass bio.. or do reasonably well for the other subjects.. yeah. Tennis's becoming a weekly thing now. Real cool. fun lah.. and de-stressing.. maybe i should have played tennis instead.. ha, but i can only whack a couple of balls.. but it's fun.. ha. Whoa, why am i having a headache now? Thought it's a morning thing.. shit, what's wrong with me.. damn. arrgh, pain. i hate headaches.squeezes my head too tight.

Maybe this(blogging) doesn't hold any meaning for me.. nah, i'll do it anyway.. ha. Well, think i'm sorta screwed.. was out the whole day yesterday.. which explains my non-blogging.. Supposed to be junyuan's treat at crystal jade.. yeah, couldn't believe it at first, and i was right.. we met fabian and somehow decided that we din want crystal jade.. So hung around at the other end of borders till 3 to go sakae sushi buffet. We wanted to mug... nice place too, some corner but table too small lah.. but when the 3 of us come together.. aka no work done.. yeah, just ended up talking... wow, and kop-ed quite a few zo cards.. some are real nice.. then went for really late lunch.. really good.. there was a time when the food we ordered kept coming, and the table was so full and messy.. really amusing. We consumed in total about 50 plates of food.. great.. think we got our money's worth, but it's not our fault we are big eaters.. haha. But in the end, that bloody junyuan made us pay part of it.. piss us off.. felt so cheated.. ha, come out and waste money.. after sushi, at about 6 went to pool.. yes, pool. wtf. can't believe i wasted close to 2 hours there at cuppage.. was on a bad streak again.. hmm real bad.. anyhow, fabian was on a pot-white-ball streak(8 in first two games), junyuan on a lucky streak, and me on a miscue one.. reached home and realised i din mug at all for friday.. shit.. then studied till slept.. Yeah, and i thought i would mug the whole friday.. thought's the word.

Just one more chance to make it once again

As the days go by, I am asking why did you leave
You left me alone and then you walked out on me
Thinking of days, thinking of ways, thinking of things that I should say
I wanna be with you and that's the only way

Don't say good-bye, just dry your eyes
A tear for everything that I did wrong
Don't say goodbye, just dry your eyes
Listen now just try and see me please don't leave me now.

"Please stay, don't go away
The hardest thing is letting go of you
Stay, don't go away
The hardest thing is letting go of you
what can I do?

Alone with you, alone with me, what can I do
I can not see, alone with, alone with..."

argh, why was i so hum-ji.. feeling weak again, and it's a sick feeling.

It saddens me.

Now i know what really hurts so much.. and it's not something that happened this year or what.. it's actually what i did not do for like 3 years in sec sch.. Damn, it still hurts alot. But now that i know better about these things, does it matter anymore? Guess there's really no one to blame.. cept myself maybe...

Played floorball in ri today.. not so fun.. cuz not many ppl turned up due to common test.. arrgh, like if anyone needs to mug more, it's me.. haha. So, after that, got mr. ong our chem teacher to come with us for luch at S11.. long time no eat ban mian.. but din miss it much actually.. qiu lian ban mian.. ha. Anyway, during and after lunch was raining like mad.. went macs to mug.. if you can call that mugging.. i quite like that place.. good place to mug i think.. spent about 5 hours there, was quite interesting.. for the first 1 hour or so we were just like talking cock around.. think we irritated the person next to us who was mugging alone.. ha.. not helped by a whole bunch of screaming kids to the tables on the other side.. there was like this time when they just screamed all at once, calling someone.. really scary, can go deaf leh.. then everyone was looking at them.. ha. Then, the best part was when this bunch of ppl came in and sat at that same table.. like 6-7 ppl, buy 1 large coke and sat there discussing some stuff.. not that we were interested, but they were talking so loud, we didn't need to eavesdrop to hear.. Apparently, my friend thought they were discussing captain's ball tactics.. so crappy we were puking.. like can't be right, there are so many other things to do than discuss capt ball tactics.. then listened further.. quote "Human nature are the most unpredictable".. "If you want to have fun, then why you win?".. "Use your butt".. "Girls score 5 points, guys score 20".. Then we concluded they were talking about basketball.. like wtf.. never heard anyone talk about basketball like that ever.. really nonsense.. but entertaining.. and they spent like 20 mins setting a target, and were talking about how many games they aim to win out of 5.. really amusing.. Also, saw another guy sitting in a corner smiling and laughing to himself.. Yes, i'm sure it wasn't the same guy at PS.. but scary, like they were exactly the same lor.. unnerving.. why are these ppl around me..

I knew it, i can't study at night.. maybe can at midnight liddat.. hmm.

Shit, hope my brother hasn't been using my msn messenger.. sorry to anyone who receivedany crap.. hmm

Maybe i won't be around by then?

If it hurts, why look? But i guess i can't really help it.. but it's really just the way i look at it.

So is it really true that you would have to experience pain first before appreciating happiness?

Shit thing today.. it's like after training, my father was waiting to pick me up.. ya, and then cuz it was past 6.30pm, the bloody gate was locked up.. so we were like stuck inside.. damn wtf.. really helpless.. went looking for a soul which might help, but the office was closed, staffroom empty, and no cleaners or whatsoever.. luckily there was a counsellor around.. helped us, he called a mr kong and later found a key.. then we could finally get out.. thanx to him.. so yeah, thanks man.. u rock.. rj sux.. like so like after 6.30pm, students will have to climb over the gates... makes no sense at all lor.. sux lah..

Did almost one physics tut today.. not a good rate at all.. also attempted 2002 chem MCQs.. just got myself demoralised again.. damn, if we were meant to fail common test, what's the point of the teachers setting the test for us in the first place.. then again, why study if you know you'll fail anyway.. hmphf
When i study, it doesn't necessarily mean i take in whatever i'm supposed to. Most of the time, i don't think i do, which is real bad, and sad.. shouldn't waste time really.. you know one day, i know that i will look back on this day and laugh about it.. why mugged so hard last time.. ha, will be a long time before that day comes. No time. Then tomorrow still have to go back ri.. partly to finally get O cert.. yeah, i want it.. haha.Dunnoe if i mug better outside or at home.. hmm, both not much good i suppose..

wah, having night training tomorrow.. hope to get some mugging done before that, home or out.

How? why does it keep happening and why does it still... nvr mind, just crapping.. yeah. it's just me.. again..

Got so many things to do, and too little time.

Ha, was arguing with my sis over msn yesterday about which harry potter book to buy.. cool.. she wanted the yellow one.. i din like it.. ha, so i forced her to agree on the blue scholastic one.. ha. cool, will buy it first thing after common test.. don want to get distracted.. i know u can't put it down once u start.. i've seen enough.. haha

Hmm, dunnoe why, can't seem to study in the mornings.. like every morning i wake up quite early.. then will slack around, read newspapers.. and finally start work only after lunch.. real crap actually. Read about Mendel today.. yes, that bio guy.. I also wonder, why do we have to suffer just becuz some guy had nothing better to do than play with flowers and stuff.. the same for other subjects too.. hmm. Just like when we did history and geo in sec 1/2.. was always thinking why the heck do we want to know what chandragupta did, or how do plate techtonics work.. guess it's the usual increase ur knowledge crap.. Ok, call me ignorant.. but still, that's the way i am... ha

Can't be;ieve i haven't tried out the new CM4 yet.. but heard there're bugs in the game.. another thing to after common test.. oh, and my project work proposal just got changed like last week, and we haen't confirm got approved yet.. and still have got to squeeze in a conferencing session this week.. never mind, can ask mr lee chem.. hah

I hate Odacians.. bloody shits.. ok, maybe not all, but screw.. f*ckers pranked called me in the middle of the night.. idiots.. Ok, i mean, don't fool me about life-and-death stuff u noe.. bloody shit.. And screw whoever gave those ppl my number..

Played tennis with my dad today after reached home.. Was damn fun. Really. Good workout, esp for my dad =) haha, should do this more.. felt damn shiok.. hey, i can play tennis..

Today was a good day. Though woke up with a headache yet again, went out to mug at ps.. can't believe we got chased out of mos.. wat crap shit is "I think we are very busy now.. hint hint".. screw off, get a bigger place lah, if business so good.. losers. had to go starbucks.. hate sitting besides smokers.. bloody shit... Whoa, and that crazy guy who kept laughing to himself.. real cool.. We ended up pooling.. Now i understand what really off means.. glad that sabrina was quite too.. muahaha.. still happy that i got 2 wins.. yeah!(and both not my work.. damn..)haha.. expected lah, play pool with me.. haha Was good tho.. only proved again that i need to play more..yeah... I still think there's something wrong with the tables at singapore shopping centre.. no, it's not the pockets too small.. hmm, it's the table lah, we can't suck that bad.. yes, must be it.. Attempted to mug bio today.. only succeeded in demoralising myself.. Always tell myself not to give up.. knowing i'll never touch the notes at home, i forced myself to read 1 chapter of bio.. think it was nucleic acid.. yeah, din get much.. So, bio common test can lala.. Good luck to me.. Good luck to all others taking bio..

Yeah, spent yesterday at jiaqing's house.. supposed to mug.. done some work.. just a little.. i mean, everyone working, what can you do.. haha.. then played 4 rounds of mahjong.. nvr play for so long liao.. thought i forgot liao, but still can remember.. the winners were going in a circle until jiaqing, not sabrina had to win the last one, then destroyed my theory.. haha.. then watch them play doa2 while looking at my notes..(hmm, how's that's possible?) din dare to play cuz i know i'll die b4 i press a button.. ha. then ended up watching tv till 9+.. got to get more work done man..